Dark Days of Uncertainty

This post won't have many photos; I'll try to have a post with more when I'm somewhere with WiFi.



I'm sad to say that my adorable calf died recently of unknown causes (she may have strangled herself on the tether line, but I don't know for sure)...she was a sweet little creature and I still miss her. :-( I wonder if it's strange that I dreamed she had come back to life or something like that the other day.

Recently I've been considering joining the Navy to be a CTN (kind of like a computer hacker), which would be great in many ways since the job is probably interesting, it can help get a good job in the civilian world after the military, it doesn't require deployments overseas except to Hawaii, which doesn't really count, etc. It seemed great, but there's one hitch: I really do not want to get the required vaccinations, mainly because I've found that there are many big risks involved with vaccinations (and they haven't been proven effective either), and since I don't have a shot record I'd have to get many in a short time, which might overload my system and do further damage. While there have been vaccination waivers given out, I haven't been having success with being able to get one...
So I either have to continue to try to get a waiver (although there seem to be few options left with that), join the military and get all the vaccinations and possibly get very sick or worse, or simply try to get any kind of minimum-wage job that probably won't help much with my future.

So currently I'm basically "stuck between a rock and a hard place," as the old saying goes...I would sincerely appreciate prayers for guidance and for doors to open so I will be able to move forward with my life.

On a more lighthearted note, here's Santa with two of my favourite fortunes: